Jujur

Im listening to Indon songs ! yea yea..im ..hahahahahaa..i dig it man..ahhahaha

thanks to Jax and Frisha..i finally have that few songs that i heard and like but dunno who sang them..hahahaa

Among the few are :
Radja - Jujur
Radja - Tulus
Peterpan - mungkin nanti
Peterpan - menunggumu
Dewa - pupus
Dewa - kangen
Padi - Sobat
Padi - menanti sebuah jawapan

Knowing me..my favourite is Jujur by Radja..nice song..nice arrangement with violins and piano and strings..hehehe

Oh yea..that day i saw Jacklyn Victor, the first Malaysian Idol at the Curve. Wooo...thought she look taller from the tv, but not in real life. Also with quite thickish whitening make up, well, the friends that were with me said that, not me..hahahaha..

iends

A Just Friend says..hi,..hello,..bye,...and walks away...
A Best friend always stop by your side & asks how r u doing ??

A Just Friend has never seen you cry.
A Best friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A Just Friend thinks the friendship is over, when you have an argument.
A Best friend knows that it's not a friendship, until you've had a fight.


what about Best Friend that you used to cry on shoulder is now Just Friend ?
What about an argument with a best friend which ends up not even friend ?
What about Best Friend that always gives you problems ?
What about Just Friend that understands you more than Best Friend ?
what about friend that you don't call up or meet often but you know they are your Best Friend ?
what about your Best Friend that maybe only take you as Just Friend ?

Talk about this..
these days is like the seasons of drama for friends..

i heard of 2 good friend end up in a fight
i heard of wars between gang of close friends
i think i lost a friend the other day over argument
i heard of cold war between partners over some misunderstandings
i heard of friends being cheated by trusted friend

I think shouldn't say as best friend kua..good friends, close friends better la. And i thought best only apply to one ? hahaha... people change from time to time, so does your friends too. Sometimes friends that were only Just Friend to you for the past 10 years, suddenly becomes your Best Friend these days..or sometimes he is ur best friend based on the good memories you guys have on the past

Locked from the Inside

Damn careless today.
Went for futsal, i was late. I reached and im changing. I always put my shirt and stuffs at the behind seats. So i stopped engine, open the backseat door, throw my car key on the back seats, pick up my shoes and shirt, and change. After changing and packing, i terpress my car key alarm lock button but i didn't realised it. The alarm ranggg...stupid me thought the car key is still insert at the engine startup slot, so i closed the door behind and booh...MY CAR IS LOCKED FROM THE INSIDE....duhhhh....the alarm keep ringing but i cant do anything. Luckily i didn't set any timer for the alarm, so it didn't rang again after the first time. Was abit frus but it didn't spoil my mood for futsal though..hahahaa..

So how did i open my car lock in the end ? of course went back to get the spare key laaaa...and who is helping you with that ? have to paksa my fatty laaa...kesian him have to fetch me back and forth..hahahaa...thanks thanks. Luckily its in Klang !

DVD

Last Saturday was nice. Started off with the bah kut teh treat from bulat, celebrating of her getting work promotion ! congrats congrats ! i went back for a not so short nap, did some work, then joined the gang for dvd. They were finishing one of the dvd when i arrived, so i only got to watch Just Like Heaven. Some left and we continue with Manhunt on Channel V...hahahahaa..back for dinner, a short jammin session, a short work out session, a short msn chatting session, then back to Aldy's place again for 2nd round movie marathon. Watched half of Independence Day, 20 mins of football match between Chelsea and Liverpool, Heirloom, Scary Movie 4. Back home it was almost 5am. And luckily it was Sunday the next day. And the gang went for lunch and shopping the next day, wonder how they managed to wake up sooo early :p

It feels like Melbourne again. Everyone is so nearby, well of course, the difference is we need to to take a short drive around lah.


"when all else fails, go sweat yourself"
"i suggest sleep..hahahaha."
"hhmm..ok. When you are pissed and stress, go sweat urself out"
"haha...i still suggest sleeping is the best solution !"

#@$@!$!$!## .hahahahhahaa :)

sigh sign

Flashbacks of memories how we started this last year
everything went well, everything is good
not long ago we know there's the problem
i thought we solve it but still it occurs
the game hasn't really started
but you said you are tired
you are really tired..

What's wrong with you ?
Where's your driving passion ?
where is the maturity that i always see in you ?
We are still very far from destination yet
What's going on with you ?

You may have your personal issues
but running away won't help
its not like the end of the world
where's your responsibility ?
do you know what are you doing ?

Its your own decision
or rather i did make my decision
its what you said today that
i find no other encouraging reasons
that we should tolerate
that we should help
that we should understand
that we should..hold on

someone out there still believes in you
someone out there still finding ways for you
someone out there still waiting for your news
but you..
your excuse is loose
you gave up too soon
you lost yourself

I might be harsh but im not heartless
you can say im selfish and stubborn
but there is just no more room for drama
i dunno when you gonna sway away again
no point coming back and sigh again
there is once and there will always be again
by the time isnt that the same cycle again ?

i look forward and move on
assumming you were not on the same boat anymore
i wear the mask of unthreaten and steady
deep inside im pretending
like its no big deal

i should be sleeping actually
i can't sleep and decided to write this
maybe it is starting to sink in
above dissappointment and stress
im... sad

stupid pimple

ooooo...this ugly shits of bump
keep getting it around my nose these days...

damn pain ehhhh....duhhhh...

same boat

sometimes im harsh on you..
sometimes i push you too hard
sometimes im not qualify to judge you to start with

sometimes im being shit..
sometimes you have to bear with me

sometimes you surprised me
sometimes you dissappointed me
and most of the time you amazed me

how you handle things
how you improve drastically

because i never deny your ability
coz you have always prove to me
to you i put trust
coz we are on the same boat
share the same passion
hope it will always be

Most of all, thanks for bearing with me always


I think i haven't did enough yet as a friend..

happy birthday, fatty.

I was at a place where you have to shout to others for them to hear you

a stage full of dressed up good looking people
a glass of barcardi Lemon Coke after sooo long
a nicotine menthol stick on my finger
an eehhyooo ehhyooo music track mixer

a glance of sexy
a smile of cheeky
a sip to heaven
a move of actions

wow...its been a while.. !!

absolutely zero

lights out
playing absolutely zero
by jason mraz

got in the mood
mood to be alone
mood to think
mood to feel emo
for this short 3 mins

feeling
fucking lazy
but im not lost
but fucking unmotivated

work piled up
late night staying up
acne breaking out
hungry empty stomach

I need my dose
dose of distortions
dose of writings
dose of screamings
dose of sweats
dose of craps
and i like that

Don't ask me don't nag me
Don't make assumptions please
what is here please stay here
else i won't bother

here i can be me
out there i won't be like this
thats the purpose of my blog writing
this is my stress relieve
i wonder if everyone is like this

You should know who i mean
You should know what i mean

3 lights away

The long awaited puff..
it feels nice and cool

first time in slazh
couldn't care less

company in crime
surrounded by dark trees

a sense of float
a moment of high

3 ticts away

shouldn't be waited

truth or dare
beers and 100

another night of crazy
a night with kinky shits

I should be working
I ended up working

though
i weren't grumbling
not really complaining
i'm procastinating

Break

I forced myself to finish the chee cheong fun...
I was waiting...

I was kinda busy
when it came in

I couldn't finished even a double cheeseburger for dinner...
but i thank you for being you

Friday
my mind keep drifting away
sorting myself out
distract myself away

the scars were always there
reminds me that the past is real...

Everything will be ok back again
the mended and broken parts will be fix soon

as long as i don't touch the knobe
as long as i hide away the keys

Im happy
and i wish you happy

:)

The friend..12.04

The friend who play football dribbling and passing on the street road with me, that was crazy
The friend who i fetch with my ol'skool bike to everywhere, countable accidents
The friend who i broke his glass but tiukao me like hell when i offered to pay him back
The friend who always gives me shit, and helps me in deep shit
The friend who my parents only knew of my friend back then
The friend who sometimes force me to go vegetarian with him in canteen
The friend who indirectly made me lost my first girlfriend
The friend who i were asked by his family to inform him the first place of his mother's departure
The friend who tried to change my mind when i decided to leave science stream
The friend who i indirectly screwed up his sister's wedding pictures
The friend who was never lucky so far in relationship
The friend who brighten up my every birthdays
The friend who flew away for the 4th year
The friend who always support and encourage me in everything

The friend of my best childhood memories...

"hey, still remember wat day is 2day?my bro's birthday! as a friend of him, hav you wish him yet ?if not, do it now lo ! help me ask the others to wish him also. k ?"


And...
i
fucking
forgot
your
birthday

If not of your brother reminding me with sms on your birthday night, i would have ..seriously...forgot.

What kind of friend am i.

I feel like a pimp

Bullshits !

Tonight i have the most crappiest sessions with the gals, the couple and the friend. Guessed i must be high from the nasi lemak or 100 plus. The debatings, the shoutings, the pinchings, the laughters, the echoes, well..nothing important...all bullshit...hahahahahhaa..

Or must be because i won the single match tonight..wuahahahaha... !
And thanks YL for the round treat..hahahaha..seems like quite some free meals these weeks, Lotus on fatty, BahKutTeh on KW, and today..yea yea...but im still broke though...

They must be surprised when they hear me sing chinese songs tomolo ! kekekee...yea..what else but ktv..hahahaa..

Here comes the weekend, benjoy !

Drye's Jammin Session.2

The jammin session that day...i was sick...but nothing could stop me..hahahahaaa...

Everything
The first jam, too slow, guitar and bass off tune, can't hear wei loon's kick, arrangement abit out, my vocal sucks, stopped halfway. Retune, reconstruct, after the 2nd rejam, everything starts to come in piece ! by the time we rehearse it for the 4th time, i no longer think about whether the bass will go off key, whether the drum will sounds weird, nice ! maybe just a bar or 2 of drums that wei loon cant remember how i really compose it in the demo..nvm..next time !

Time
The first jam, fuck...it was awesome ! damn...it wasn't a problem for wei loon since we jammed this before the last time. But for Taik, the bassist, everything he played was ...cool..damn !

Possibility
Nice ! besides the first time we stopped halfway because the bridge was confusing, the rejam again was ..complete ! hahahahahaa... except maybe just figure out that wei loon got lost in some parts dunno when to go into chorus..i guessed so..hahahahaha..you da man !

Fallin Apart
I think this is my personal favourite song. 3 attempts and we stopped, coz Taik admit he couldn't get what was i playing from the demo or from the tabs i gave, until now seeing how i play it. While Wei Loon being forgetful again..hahahaa..well..i dun blame, it was a kinda progressive rock song to start with.

My Way
Didn't thought we will jam this song, coz it wasn't in our jammin list actually. But it just hit off like that, everything...just like that..hahahaha..damn nice feeling though !

I still got quite some complaints though. Like the sound system, the drumkick sound, the mic stand, the mic volume, the studio guitar amps, and the 2 other bandmates that couldn't make it. But practise makes perfect, i couldn't ask more for the first jammin sessions with Taik, the bassist. And i believe Taik can play alot better adding in his own style the next sessions, coz he is just playing according to my tabs for this time.

KF : hey..still interested to jam with that bassist fella ?
WL: Of course. He is the best one we jammed before so far.

I agreed..hahahahah

Looking forward for more jammin sessions. And please, i hope i don't fall sick on that very day again...duhhh !

Ps. We saw you that day. Either you are blind, or you didn't saw us, or you just overlooked us..coz we were just 2 tables away and you passed by us twice...hahahaha...well, i didn't greet you also to start with, doesn't matter la...dunno..dun care.

Blackie

She cried tonight, midnight
It was weird..it seldom happened.
I went down to her, to check on her.
She was alright, but she is crying,
she look so sad, why...
I know why..
she want to get out from the kernel..
but mom always put her in the kernel in the night...
don't ask me why

Her eyes are wet
transparently glowing...
heavy breathingly
looking at me...
i keep smiling and saying
"sleep la...sleep la"

then i remember the old sayings..
if you rub the tears of a dog onto your own eyes...
you can see the "other" world...

She usually don't cry,
tonight she does,
and there's the tears..
but no..i didn't took the risk...
crazy..hahahaha...
my own imagination could oledi kill me

tonight i felt pity
i left her out from the kernel
im a good boy
but for sure mom gonna nag me tomolo

Hopefully the night is still the same
as long as she don't bising

Best presentation

Today i had the best "presentation" ever...i guessed so..

Maybe i was sick and weak, maybe i just dunwan to start the fire knowing me, i will just shoot everything out. Maybe it was vc, who played the cards so smartly and carefully, which makes me presented it in the end in the most general ways. Seriously, i was surprised myself.

Things that supposed to said, is said.
Things that supposed to be done is done
Things that supposed to be discuss, is discuss

problems are clear
misunderstandings are clear
direction clear
major role clear

I think it does scratched the match fire a bit. But it didn't spread off just like that. Everything under control, i made my point, he made his point, so does he.

Everyday we learn something, today i learnt :

Outsiders always knows clearer whats happening between. When you see them, you are the outsiders ; when they see you, they are the outsiders.

Water Balloons

I know everyone knows that night is gonna be a fun crazy nite for all of us.
Everything well prepared...the belons are readily loaded with water, the airgun is armed, the cake is nicely cream whipped.

The plan abit spoiled when the birthday boy dinner was cut short, and saw us preparing the water belons. But there was no turning back for him...wuahahahhaha

The supposed plan is to bring the water belons over to a nearby padang to play and celebrated. But dunno who started throwing balloons at KW..... and..----- war starts !!!

15 minutes of war... KW avoiding and running..and he slipped and fell...yea..wet floor. Knee cap hitted, pain, care, cant stand, end up at the nearest clinic.

Party ends...just like that ! hahahahaha...

What a birthday present to you, KW :)

Well, anyway, we make him cut the cake the next day and belanja us yumchar. Yea, his knee is ok the next day.

thanks

Wooo..thanks all for the supports and motivations. Alot of unexpected smses and msgs ...really really unexpected..appreciate that

Didn't know many of my friends actually take the time to download and listen to all the songs. The power of MSN..hahahaha...Felt kinda weird knowing people heard my sucky vocals..hahahaha...and of course..screamings..

But guess this all started off with the acoustic "song for sale" song. Among all the compliments and critics, my best satisfaction was knowing that it actually inspired some of my friends to do things they wanted.

I wrote that song for someone ?
well..maybe..subconsciously..to someone that i once really care for..
The lyrics ? hahaa..like i said..i just sang out just like that..no proper lyrics..just the chorus

Doesn't matter where im going
for as long as you can hear me
its the best thing i 've ever had
for as long as you can make me real

Write more acoustic songs like that? yea..i will considered that if i found a great vocalist..hehe
Write chinese songs ? i dunno..never tried..hahahahaha. I scare it will turn out and sounds like English ..hahahah..

But like the title itself..i wrote that song..is actually to really sell that song...to whoever that interested to buy it..ahhahaha...

I feel motivated. Thanks alot.

http://www.i-bands.net/audiovault/bands/1444/music.php

k...gonna rest a while. Whipped cream+balloon+flour+water+airgun party tonight !!!! hope the girls wear white..ahhahahahahahahaa...